Adieu Dear Friend

Dear Manish,

So finally the time has come to say goodbye to you and unfortunately I am not there to hug you goodbye. And so I am taking a chance to compensate  the hug with ‎a short [may be lengthy ;) ] note.

It's been just a year and a couple of "sprints" since you joined us. That was the phase when project was on peak and so were our temperatures. Your presence was welcome, especially for me as "tamannas replacement‎" and as a true developer in the team. You were an actual far cry from from what could have been tamannas replacement.

You proved your worth many a times in crisis and ‎in peace and that was the quality we shall always cherish. You learned nuances of the game quickly and the harder it got the better you played. 

I think this mail is now becoming a testimony instead of toast so I will stop praising you.

I really appreciate your dynamic attitude and it suits your experience group, but as a humble advice, now it's time to stop rolling hard and start gaining some moss.‎ Now that you have entered a phase where along with your development skills your supervisors would also expect you to mentor and lead new entrants. This is the time when your actions will not only impact your career but will inspire to make theirs. Make most of this opportunity to earn a good name and reputation because that's the only motivating factor in this corporate war, nothing else would give you support to stay afloat. 

I know you will succeed and emerge out as a "rockstar" ‎in true sense and conquer many hearts in the process.

I shall always cherish the glorious moments spent with you on multiple occasions especially the following

1. Bowling game with Bunny

2. Party at Le Meredian

3. ‎Our tapri sessions at kutte ki tapri and Fujitsu tapri.

4. Many of out breakfast and snack jokes.

5. Hilarious planning sessions with Project Manager and Personal Assistant.

I won't ask you to keep in touch as I know that I can count on you even after we have not exchanged a word in a decade.

True friends are those who we don't talk too or see every day but when we do see and talk too them its like you never went without talking and you always know you can count on them no matter what happens.

‎There are very few people who actually meet my wavelengths and being one of those you will have to carry the load of my friendship.

PS: The original idea was to write a mail on behalf of Priyanka and Umang but sorry friends.. this mail contains enough I's to contradict that idea.

‎PS 2: If this mail feels too buttery and sugary , it's just because I have been eating a lot of both in last couple of days and I am in a very pleasant mood while writing this mail.

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Feel the Pain

‎Few weeks back I posted that I have changed and not feeling Pain or emotions as it used to be.

But yesterday I contradicted myself by writing a post about the pain that I am feeling. 

So giving it a deep thought overnight and on my way to office, it seems a bit clear now.

Yes I do not feel pain for routine things as it's now become routine and I got immunity over it.

But for some special feelings I still emotional and I do feel my beats rising and emotions oozing out, which I try to hide from the world. 

Yesterday I spent some alone time waiting for someone to come and pat me on my back for what I am going though. 

So it's upto us what are our priorities and whom we allow to hurt us. 

Sometimes  A blow on face doesn't hurt from someone like a wrinkle of stress on someone others.

I feel at peace now as the mystery is resolved!!

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The pain of loosing that was never yours

Hi,

This post was in my mind since quite some time but I wanted to write it in a way that won't raise doubts.

A few days back when I was shopping with my wife, she saw a dress ‎in a lady's hand. Richa liked it so much that she started looking for same dress on the stalls but unfortunately didn't get any success. She bought one finally but was still sad that she didn't get the one that she had seen.

I am also going through similar situation which I won't elaborate else I will have to remove this post.

Now that I have seen my wife sad I can understand how stupid we are not to see the whole picture and cry for a particular detail.

But then on the other side, the pain is too much to take on and so the behaviour is expected. 

Bbye!!

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The celebrations

Hi All,

Its Ganesh Visarjan in my office.. and people are enjoying , dancing in the procession.

I came out with my friends, to have tea.

I see people dancing and celebrating.. that's how it should be..

 

 

But I am not in the pic.. why?,  you ask??

Because I somehow am not able to connect to it..

I am not able to join any celebration.. even if I join an event I am out of it before I realize.

So I silently click some pics and move back to my desk..

Here I see a few people who do not bother to attend this …

I cant say if anything is wrong with them, but I am sure something is wrong with me..

I feel I am not able to socialize as freely as I would 5 years back.

The reason for this is still unknown to me but I fear the consequences. I hope this changes soon else I might choke up on myself.

There is nothing to be afraid about.. but lack of emotion is too scary...

 

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Long time no C

It's been some time since I've posted here. 

Reasons... many to quote and none to prove.  

So I was busy with long travels to other office and busy with my life..

How do I feel now? 

I feel good. Just good.

Sometimes it's the perspective that defines your situation. Things are going quite smoothly but small disturbances make me sad. 

I see nothing in the near or distant future to motivate me to be happy. 

Thats it.

bye bye!!

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Just another post!!

Hi,

Yes.. second post...

I am on my way home and it's raining outside. 

And I don't have TV series episode in phone to watch.  

So thought of putting up some posts.

There is nothing worth mentioning right now in my life, but lots of politics. 

I am not sure how I am still surviving. I think it's because I am aware that it's going to be the same every where. 

Over and out...

Catch you soon!

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The apples of my eyes

‎Hi all,

Yes am back again.. this time there is a good news to share.

As I am posting from my BlackBerry you have already seen the image on top.

Recently I bought my first Apple device... first because I know that this is not last.

It was real joy seeing pravi help me unbox it.

Love you my lucky charm.

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The weekend

‎Hi all,

I was planning this post since couple of days and wanted to make it in 2 parts but my laziness took over and now I am not sure what I am going to write.

So I enjoyed long weekend with my inlaws in surat where I also met my mother. 

Now that pravi has started ‎understanding things it was a great adventure.

First of all the humid climate made it difficult for us to adjust and over that pravi was in no mood to meet new people. 

We went to attend a couple of functions but it was really difficult to keep up with her. 

Also we went to restaurant for a dinner with richas parents. That too was a great adventure. Now that I have returned I feel so relaxed and refreshed. 

Will catch up soon.!!

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Just another hi

‎It so happens that we don't bother about the ones who help is in tough times. 

Even I Didn't bother to post since so many days just because I am tied up with work and I am not so lonely. 

But since last few days I have started feeling bored and lonely. 

I hope this doesn't last long.

In the meantime check out my angel. :)

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The frequency

‎Today I found an interesting article about a lonely whale who is alone since birth most probably. 

Scientists followed her for 10 years to get more details for this and came out with a really interesting explanation. 

Whales communicate via songs at frequency of 15-25 hz. But this one is unique. She sings at frequency of 51hz. Which no other whale can understand and she is not able to understand theirs. As the time is passing she is becoming more desperate and frustrated. 

Something similar happens with us. Most of the times we are running on different frequency and we start thinking that others are not responding to our calls. But then sometimes we need to change our frequency to match others.

That's how life moves.

Coincidence is that I found this image today and going through similar phase since some time. 

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The island

Hi all

I know this is coming after a long time, especially considering the fact that now I can post virtually any time. 

The plot suddenly came to my mind in morning. 

I'm watching a TV series Arrow and the protagonist returns from an island after 5 years. He survives the tortures there and even after retuning he survives the war he is going through. 

But that's not the point.

Sometimes I feel even we are surviving this island and all of us are survivors. 

Yesterday evening I saw an old lady same age as of my grandmothers. She was very poor and was looking at a rotted fruit thrown on the street. I felt pity for her and asked my brother to give her 10 rs. It was no big deal for me and now I feel it might not matter much for her as well. She has survived this long and might go more. 

Lots of thoughts in my mind but don't know how to put them in words. I am afraid I might change after reading my own thoughts.

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Just a hi!!

‎It's been a week since my last post. Plan was to post at least twice a week. Not sure if I can really keep it up. 

Have been going through a lot of stress since couple of weeks and the worst part is that there is no good reason for it.  

Hope that things turn out well and the boat starts sailing smoothly!!

Wish to catch you soon.

In the mean time check out this cute moment of my life, we did her photo session yesterday and it was pure fun :)

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Change...

‎As I have always mentioned that change is evident part of my life, I am pleased to announce that I have bought a new phone. BlackBerry Z10.

I bought it after a lot of thinking and rethinking, but happy to have made the decision. 

Hope to be posting more frequently than ever!!

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The Ignore Switch..

Hi All,

Yes… the flow of emotions continues…

Third post for the day but I do not think I will be able to break the record of 4 posts in a same day.. :P

 

Recently I have been thinking a lot.. :P and my wife has been complaining a lot ..for the same reason..

It so happens that whenever we face a situation where we cannot / do not want to help/intervene we hit the ignore switch.

Like while walking through the town we see someone throwing trash on road we turn our face and walk away. We do no action.

Sam happens when we see some stranger in some pain/difficulty.. we ignore..

I feel I have been doing the same at my house. There are lots of open items/issues which need my attention but I have hit the ignore switch on those.

Sad it is but then it is the Human nature.

People like Mahatma Gandhi, Bose, and other freedom fighters also hit the ignore switch but what they ignored was not agony of people , they ignored the pain they felt when they were crushed time and again.

I am not sure if I should change the direction of the ignore switch but in my heart I am pretty sure I am wrong.

 

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The bundle of joy.. story continues

Hi all,

Yes second post for the day..

Sometimes you are so much full of feelings that you feel like venting out your feelings..

So this flow of posts is for the same reason.. [the reason could be in a follow up post ;)]

But the context of this post is a bit different..

My bundle of joy [Pravi] is growing up .. almost 2 and half months and same stands true for her problems..

I always knew that kids came with their problems.. but  you won’t understand this until you yourself face them..

The biggest problem is that you do not know what he wants or the actual reason why she is crying.

You can experiment and map her crying patterns just like my wife is doing but then you can never be sure..

What I like about my wife is the way she is maintaining her cool with Pravi.

I was literally in a shock when the other day in morning she was talking with Pravi so sweetly even though my wife hand not slept for more than an hour. Pravi was a bit ill and Richa was awake whole night to look after her.

And I get frustrated with slightest of her cries..

Now I understand the saying that nature takes care of everything and gives a mother the tolerance levels so high..

Still I do not want to pass on the credit to nature..

KUDOS to Richa for being such a sport and a great mother in the making.

I wish someday Pravi understands the efforts made by her mom!

 

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The Lock

Hi All,

This time I am back with a shorter break than usual..

Wanted to post so many items but my laziness defies my will power.

And this topic was on my notes since quite some time..

Although this was a random thought which popped over during a “tapri” session with my friends at office,

I nurtured it a bit to create a plot of what to write..

But today when I am actually writing this post I do not remember what I had planned..

I still can tell you the conversation how it started..

So we were enjoying our tea when we were discussion something.

And then I came up with this sentence

“Dammed is the guy who invented locks”

And by lock I don’t mean the hard lock-key type of lock but any lock..

It’s because of the open locks that we feel like stealing something..

Locked could be your PC or your facebook account..

It could be your house, locker, cupboard.

Heck most of us lock our minds with opinions and judgments.

I always feel Anything locked is not at all good for us..

We are so used to locks that we cannot imagine the world without locks…

 

 

PS: The thought was seeded in my mind by one of the books by Ayn Rand.

 

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Pravi.. my bundle of joy

Finally i have broken the record of 3 posts in a day as this is my 4th post for the day..
While browsing through recent posts i found that i had not mentioned name of my daughter.
we have named her "Pravi" which means incredible..
I actually liked the phonetics of this name rather than its meaning .. yes she is incredible but that was not the reason i chose this name..

now that you know her name let me post some recent pics of her...

of Sooping Around

Third post on a single day.. i think i am making records now..
[i guess i have already posted 3 posts in a day]

So the topic is self explaining ...
I have a knack of hacking into computers and somehow i fancied learning it..
i have been trying this since i have started using computers..
i still remember hacking into college computers and  local accounts of batch mates and seniors to get their funny codes..i was a betr coder .. [no this is noways a confession]
then when i was on my 1st job i hacked in to office computers to gain access to restricted social networking sites..
this continued and i donot remember when i started getting obsessed into this..
but then i realized that why snooping around is not good...
the first thing is the guilt in your heart.. atleast i find it very difficult to silence my conscience..
the second thing is that once you know their secrets ... you despise most of them.. because you know what they think of you and how theytry to fool you .. and then yous stop believing everyone because yo start categorizing them in the first meeting itself..
the third and final reason is the fear of getting caught.. because what you are worse then them... deep down inside even you are dark...

[No this is not a confession post and i have never done any thing illegal.. i have hacked into accounts only of my family members or really close friends.. i am happy that my offices have tight security policies and they are safe from attack from external/internal forces ]

over a year since the revamp..

Today i am blogging using the default interface after a very long time..
so while browsing through the posts i found that it has been over a year since i revamped the blog...
this would be my 41st published post [ i have 1 in draft which i might never publish] .
i was surprised with the numbers because i didnt expect more than 20-25 posts..
there have been many "offline" times when i was away for months...
but i think blogging makes me feel happy and i should be doing more of it...
So hope to catch you again more frequently from now.. :)

Moving On Contiues...

Hi All,
Back with a new post..
Posting directly via blogger after a looong time... reason?? i dont know..
One reason could be that i am posting from home laptop.. :p
normally i prefer posting via email.. i find it simple and easy... also it automatically corrects my typos [i had to manually do the corrections for this post]
The reason for this post is...
i am again moving on... form this project...
The planning was being done since a long time but now its almost confirmed that i will have to move to a new project.. i had known that i had to move .. and like always i am not feeling good...
its a bit sad to move out of the team and start something from scratch... the bond that you make with the existing team has to be remade...
Sometimes the bond becomes a bit strong if you are with the team for over a year..the same has happened this time..
And then there are some team member who are more than your professional friends...its difficult to drift away from such teams..
and this time if stars favor the new project could be at a very different location and i might end up moving to a new city...
i was planning for a quite different post with a topic name [moving away from friends] but then i rethought on it..
the reason i was thinking of this post was what happened in the last week..
i am already in transition out of this project and last two days i was completely away from my team.. which made me feel very uneasy...
over that i had to return my laptop temporarily for some reason... and my office laptop is my only laptop.. so i feel a bit more crippled
[well this is my brothers laptop and i have to literally borrow it from him every time i use it.. ]
Considering how dynamic the mobile application development process is i feel that now its time to ensure that we start maintaining a firewall with the team..
so for now this is the plan and i am very sure i will NOT stick to it.. :p...
 but then only time can tell what happens next...
Sometimes i want to flow out my feelings but i know not everything can be shared...

Btw its holi today and thats y  i am on leave...
Wish you all a very happy holi..

Last Item You want to eat..

This item has been in my “To Post ” list since last 3 months..

If I remember correctly I read this question on Quora.

This triggered a thought process where I felt that I didn’t want anything specific if I was given a choice for the last item.. I might not eat it at all..

Had the question been a bit different… something like what do you want to eat /taste right now if given free… there would have been a list of at least 50 odd items ready in a minute..

But if the question is about the last item… I do not have a “favorite” item which I would yearn to eat…

Yes this answer is coming from an all-time foodie… who likes to munch upon anything veg [should be tasty] ..

Even I was surprised when I came to know that ther was no item that I would like to eat if given a last chance…

 

 

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The atheist who believes in god

Hi All,

Back after quite a time..

Was busy attending the bundle of joy…

I wanted to share a lot of stuff but then my laziness takes over…

But today’s post is a different reason…

I do not claim to be an atheist but I really doubt the existence of god…

I am very firm on my beliefs against religions and the Nirvana.. but the only point where I am dubious is existence of god.

Sometimes I pray to him.. thank him when a good thing happens and beg him to relieve from my pains…

But this is because it gives me support…in pain and makes me humble while accepting my victory…

I do feel that there is some superpower who is listening but then I have a lot of questions to ask him and tons of favors I want him to bestow upon me..

Waiting for the day I meet him J

 

 

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First night with my cutie pie

Hi all,
Yes so now that the bundle is delivered I will keep on ranting about how she doesn't let me sleep all night and how tired I am..
But frankly speaking this was one of the best experience of my life..
I was all night with my honey and she didn't harass me at all..
Ofcourse she was all mess the whole night and woke me every time I slid to nap.. but it was all natural and she didn't cry or do anything like other babies so.. I feel she is lot like me and wont harass me.. !!
Lots of things I want to share but I don't think I have words to express the feeling.. happy and blessed are just plain translations for the feeling but in no sense they express the exact meaning..
I think this is all for tonight!!

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The bundle of Joy

So the bundle of joy has finally arrived..
Its a cute girl.. name.. we are yet to decide..
Mom n daughter both r doing well!!

Posting this from the hospital itself...
Cant express in words.. what a great joy it is!!

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Will i become a good father

This post turns out to be musing of one of my recent posts..

I was on a different train of thought [sitting in a bus actually] and this question popped up..

Its not that I never thought of this but now as the date is near.. the question is more visible than ever.

As a kid when my parents used to scold me, deny me for things I wanted or hit me I used to think that whatever happens I won’t do this with my kids..

Now that I have grown up and I am understanding  the reasons behind their acts... I feel a lot of times would I ever be like my father..

I don’t think I could even do half of what my parents have done for me…

Even today my dad holds my back whenever I need. I never have to turn around to check if he is there or not.. I have so much faith in him..

Will my prove to be same to my kids s the question…

I know only time can tell this but I am already in doubt..

There were times when I used to freak out over this thought but now the  battle is On and it’s the time to use the shining armor mounted on me.. J

 

 

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i donot hate you ..

 

This post was in my mind an on my notes since a long time..

I found this image on Quora and since that moment I knew I want to blog it..

I have met so many people in my life some good many bad and remaining so mean that I would never want to meet them again..

But in professional world you meet at least 2 new people each day and there are 90 % chances that you won’t like this person.

But then you do not actually hate this guy/gal.. So what is the feeling then??

This image is the answer for the same feeling..

 

 

 

 

I know at least 4-5 such people for whom I can say this.. but the human in me won’t let me drink the water.. ;-)

 

 

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the Appendix

Hi,

Back again with a new post..

This idea was in my mind since last 2 months but I was not able to put it down..

Today as I am killing time I think I should pick this up..

It so happened had one fine day I felt excruciating pain in my abdomen…

I am a kidney stone patient and this disease is sort of chronic.. if one stone is removed there are chances of getting another stone …

But I felt as if this pain was different than usual. So I went to a doctor and he diagnosed it as Appendix infection..

He gave me some meds and a painkiller..

But then after 2-3 days I felt more pain and so we opted for a sonography report to confirm if the appendix needed to be removed.

It turned out to be kidney stone and I started treatment..

But within tht duration I experienced a very different thing..

I had seen a lot of people getting appendix removed.. but I never felt as if they are losing a body part.

Even I have got my 2 teeth extracted but I too never felt a feeling of ownership over those teeth.

Okay I still have the tooth with me but it was different. I didn’t feel bad about it..

But appendix was different.. I know its not a very useful part in body [I am also aware of the current debate over this] but still I didn’t want it to be remover.

The reason .. I am still not aware why I feel so but this is true..

This brings me thought of a mother who has to leave a child after he/she grows up..

its also a part of her body whom she nurtured with herself for first nine months and then too utmost care for the following years                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         ..

Now that I am on the verge of becoming a father .. I get this thought a lot of times if I would make a good parent or not.. but then that is topic for some other post..

Bbye till then!!

 

 

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The new year post

Hi All,

Back after quite a time. A lot had been happening since my last post.. but didn’t get time or rather didn’t feel like posting anything..

You know how lazy I am..

I spent a week at my home and then a week without wife in pune .. the experience was too good..

And the best part is that I am writing this on my way to home again.. I know this will be posted not before Monday or may be early but I am quite happy today..

There are a lot of reasons for the happiness… one of the reasons being that I will be with my wife when the  bundle of joy comes to me J

Today was my last day in office in the sense that now for almost a month I will be working from home.

Felt a bit odd for that..

I have a weird attachment to office and colleauges.sometimes I feel that I enjoy more with them than family..

My dear wifey also thinks so.. I know this is not ture because if this was the case then I wont hve opted for a isolate seat instead of the seat in cubicle where all sit…

I know this is hell of confusion of me about myself my mind and my choices..but then this is what defines me.. I m really happy to be what I am..

I know I have done lot of mistakes knowingly and unknowingly.. and I will continue to do so..

I am curious to know if I will remember all this when I grow old.. iused to write a diary in college and now when I read it I am not able to recall more than 50% of the incidents.

This is within 5-6 years of the happenings…what when I grow 50 yrs old and I am idle sitting in my office o home chair…will I be able to remember these days?? I don’t know..

May be this is one of the reasons I am writing this blog..

But I am not able to write everything here.. is till feel I would be more comfortable with a paper and a pen..but I cannot do so..

I think this is it for the post..

I am planning to cover a couple of plots I had thought ti kill more time in the journey .. J

 

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