The stupid guy

She was a bit dusky in complexion and had a bit rough voice.. not at all soft or sweet like a dream girl.

Both were the reasons he liked her.. He always found her beautiful and appealing..

And he was not the only person to like her.. there were many others in the “Race”.. as he said…

Their first meeting was nothing special.. it was his 2^nd year in college.. she had joined his class from 2^nd year….

He saw her ..she saw him..eyes met and they went to their seats..

He kept peeking at her.. knowingly ..unknowingly..

Next day he saw her in the corridor with his school mate..

This was the chance to advance he thought.. but he was too shy to go ahead..

Days and months passed.. they started interacting like other classmates…

Nothing in direction of an advanced relationship…

But his heart was already lost ..for her..

It was not his first love ..nor a love at first sight..

He didn’t know her feelings but he felt as if she was also having similar feelings for him..

But then his rational mind interfered.. it told him that it’s his misunderstanding.. she approaches him just like any one else..

It was true for a reason.. he was a clever student with good academic background.. so lot of classmates approached him and wanted to be friends with him..

 

He discussed the situation with his close friend.. the friend suggested him to try a bit further and indirectly approach her…

He started to think of the prefect lines for the same..

Time was passing by.. then one day he got to know that one of his friends too had a crush on her.. and they both were spotted together a couple of times..

He knew it was too late and left the thought..

Now they were in 3^rd year..

One fine day he got a chance to spend some time with her… he used to help her in the college assignments and stuff

She discussed a lot of things with him..and he got to know that she was not in a relationship…

It was more like she wanted to tell him this since long.. she had got the feeling that he was trying to keep a distance from her..

So they were together again..

It was her birthday.. he had brought the usual gifts and card for her..

There was a practice to call your friends at midnight on birthday and the one who called first was most caring person..

He didn’t call her at 12.. not to tease her but he knew that she had to take calls from others as well ..

He didn’t want her to drop his call just because someone else was calling her..

He called her at 2 AM.. she must be asleep..it took her some time to answer..

He wished her..sang the birthday song for her.. this was the first time he had sung a birthday song for anyone.

She was angry on him for not calling her at 12.. he had to console her and explain her the real reason.. then thay chatted for long may be 1-2 hours..

He had already recharged his phone balance to last for 3 hours.. this was first time ever his phone had such a big blance..

She was special for him…

They never proposed each other but both had already read in each other’s eyes..

Then it was the Farewell party they had organized for seniors..

He had enjoyed the dance with her.. his eyes never left here even when she was with her friends..

And then he did what he had never thought of..

While leaving he gifted her a red rose… and told her that he loved her..

Then he left ….

He was in the bus on his way home waiting for her reply…

Then something stuck him.. he didn’t know what .. but he backed out..

He messaged her that it was a joke.. he didn’t mean it..

 

The relation was never same again..

He still had feelings for her..and he knew she to had the same…

The reason for his backing out..even he doesn’t know..

May be it was because he didn’t want to take responsibility..

May be he was still not sure if she was the one he wanted..

May be he was sacrificing her for his friend who liked her..

May be she thought she was using him for her benefits..

May be he didn’t want to be a part of the “Race”..

May be he was just a stupid guy…

 

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Hi all,
It's been a loooong time since my last post...
There are a lot of reasons ranging from a lost blackberry to lazyness and not forgetting that I was not having a plot for some post..
Even today there is no specific reason...
I just thought of making a post to keep the blog alive...
I started the blog out of loneliness and still am... Lots of parameters have changed in this time but the premise still remains the same...
When I was in teenage I used to think the loneliness will vanish once I will be in a relationship..
It was more like a fetish( pardon my low vocab) to have a partner.. ofcourse of the opposite sex...
Days passed on .. and in my college I got numerous chances to fulfill this wish...
It was almost fulfilled on 2 3 occasions if I had not backed out at the 11th hour.. and once at 13th hour..(the 13th hr case  could be a plot for  another post).
The reason for backing out was always the same ... My fear of responsibilities... Which I still do...
Times changed.. I got married to my dear wife... But still the dil still remains a baccha.. the same boy who didn't want to be responsible for anything...
I was not able to understand myself till now.. bit there are always some eureka moments...
Mine was triggered for altogether a different reason...
When I am writing this post I am now understandding the reasons for me not having lot of friends in childhood and even till date...
Although there are 2 more reasons that I lack frienda one being my bitter language and other being my lazyness which is cleverly disguised as my introvertness..
Lots to speak of but I don't think this os the right time as I am not at home and this Mobile battery is dying...
Wish I could write more...

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