Feel the Pain

‎Few weeks back I posted that I have changed and not feeling Pain or emotions as it used to be.

But yesterday I contradicted myself by writing a post about the pain that I am feeling. 

So giving it a deep thought overnight and on my way to office, it seems a bit clear now.

Yes I do not feel pain for routine things as it's now become routine and I got immunity over it.

But for some special feelings I still emotional and I do feel my beats rising and emotions oozing out, which I try to hide from the world. 

Yesterday I spent some alone time waiting for someone to come and pat me on my back for what I am going though. 

So it's upto us what are our priorities and whom we allow to hurt us. 

Sometimes  A blow on face doesn't hurt from someone like a wrinkle of stress on someone others.

I feel at peace now as the mystery is resolved!!

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The pain of loosing that was never yours

Hi,

This post was in my mind since quite some time but I wanted to write it in a way that won't raise doubts.

A few days back when I was shopping with my wife, she saw a dress ‎in a lady's hand. Richa liked it so much that she started looking for same dress on the stalls but unfortunately didn't get any success. She bought one finally but was still sad that she didn't get the one that she had seen.

I am also going through similar situation which I won't elaborate else I will have to remove this post.

Now that I have seen my wife sad I can understand how stupid we are not to see the whole picture and cry for a particular detail.

But then on the other side, the pain is too much to take on and so the behaviour is expected. 

Bbye!!

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The celebrations

Hi All,

Its Ganesh Visarjan in my office.. and people are enjoying , dancing in the procession.

I came out with my friends, to have tea.

I see people dancing and celebrating.. that's how it should be..

 

 

But I am not in the pic.. why?,  you ask??

Because I somehow am not able to connect to it..

I am not able to join any celebration.. even if I join an event I am out of it before I realize.

So I silently click some pics and move back to my desk..

Here I see a few people who do not bother to attend this …

I cant say if anything is wrong with them, but I am sure something is wrong with me..

I feel I am not able to socialize as freely as I would 5 years back.

The reason for this is still unknown to me but I fear the consequences. I hope this changes soon else I might choke up on myself.

There is nothing to be afraid about.. but lack of emotion is too scary...

 

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